\u201c\u2026Po, q\u00eb prej s\u00eb m\u00ebrkur\u00ebs t\u00eb dua n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr; m\u00eb duket sikur jemi m\u00eb t\u00eb lidhur, m\u00eb t\u00eb af\u00ebrt, sikur m\u00eb pak gj\u00ebra nga bota e jashtme mund t\u00eb ndikojn\u00eb n\u00eb lidhjen ton\u00eb; q\u00eb, edhe sikur t\u00eb mos piqemi p\u00ebr nj\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb, kjo s\u2019do t\u00eb thot\u00eb gj\u00eb dhe s\u00eb fundmi<\/p>\n
(a mendon edhe ti k\u00ebshtu?) dashuria jon\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb m\u00eb serioze, duke humbur pamjen e jashtme. A do ta dish shkakun? Se mbi t\u00eb gjitha kemi qen\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb; se i jemi dh\u00ebn\u00eb natyr\u00ebs pa art, pa u turbulluar, si f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e gjor\u00eb t\u00eb padjall\u00ebzuar q\u00eb e kan\u00eb sefte. Po k\u00ebshtu, prej saj un\u00eb s\u2019mora hidh\u00ebrim, por nj\u00eb ngroht\u00ebsi shum\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebndshme q\u00eb m\u00eb mban n\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrrim epshndjell\u00ebs\u2026 Megjithat\u00eb, k\u00ebt\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje iu vura pun\u00ebs, ama me shum\u00eb mundim\u2026 t\u00eb punojm\u00eb sa m\u00eb mir\u00eb, pastaj do t\u00eb piqemi hera-her\u00ebs, kur t\u00eb mundemi; do t\u2019i japim nj\u00ebri-tjetrit nj\u00eb vrullim\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb ajri, do t\u00eb ngihemi sa t\u00eb vdesim; pastaj do t\u2019i kthehemi agj\u00ebrimit. Kush e di? Ndoshta \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00ebnyra m\u00eb e mir\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb shkruar si duhet e p\u00ebr t\u2019u dashur shum\u00eb. Kush mund t\u00eb na siguroj\u00eb se, duke jetuar gjithnj\u00eb s\u00eb toku, nuk do t\u00eb lodhemi nga nj\u00ebri-tjetri? Do t\u00eb ket\u00eb dyshime, mbase edhe xhelozi; prej k\u00ebtej zem\u00ebrime, z\u00ebnka. Do t\u00eb vazhdojm\u00eb t\u00eb takohemi nga kok\u00ebfort\u00ebsia apo zakoni dhe jo nga d\u00ebshira, si tani. Megjithat\u00eb s\u2019e besoj k\u00ebt\u00eb. Ti je tejet e mir\u00eb, \u00ebmb\u00eblake, tejet e p\u00ebrkushtuar, ndryshe nga grat\u00eb e tjera q\u00eb jan\u00eb aq egoiste, aq t\u00eb ashpra me burrin q\u00eb dashurojn\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Ty t\u00eb dua si kurr\u00eb nuk kam dashur e si nuk do t\u00eb dua m\u00eb. Ti je dhe do t\u00eb mbetesh e vetmja, e pakrahasueshme me asgj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. \u00cbsht\u00eb di\u00e7ka e pleksur dhe e thell\u00eb, di\u00e7ka q\u00eb m\u00eb mban nga t\u00eb gjitha an\u00ebt, q\u00eb k\u00ebnaq t\u00eb gjitha orekset e mia dhe p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhel sedr\u00ebn time. Realiteti yt gati zhduket. P\u00ebrse sa her\u00eb mendoj p\u00ebr ty, t\u00eb shoh me kostume t\u00eb tjera, t\u00eb ndryshme nga t\u00eb tuat? Mendimi se ti je dashnorja ime m\u00eb vjen rrall\u00eb, apo ti nuk formulohesh tek un\u00eb nga kjo. Kundroj fytyr\u00ebn t\u00ebnde t\u00eb ndri\u00e7uar nga g\u00ebzimi, teksa lexoj vargjet e tua duke t\u00eb admiruar. At\u00ebher\u00eb ajo ka nj\u00eb shprehje t\u00eb shk\u00eblqyer ideali, krenarie dhe mall\u00ebngjimi. N\u00ebse mendoj p\u00ebr ty kur jam n\u00eb shtrat, nj\u00eb krah i mbledhur, lakuriq, nj\u00eb ka\u00e7urrel i ngritur pak m\u00eb lart se tjetri, duke par\u00eb tavanin. \u2013 M\u00eb duket se ti mund t\u00eb plakesh duke u sh\u00ebmtuar, por asgj\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb dyve dhe t\u00eb pavarur nga ne. A nuk kam b\u00ebr\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb t\u00eb l\u00ebn\u00eb? A nuk ke b\u00ebr\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb t\u00eb duash t\u00eb tjer\u00eb? Jemi kthyer prap\u00eb te nj\u00ebri-tjetri, pasi jemi b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. T\u00eb dua me gjith\u00eb zem\u00ebr. Do doja t\u00eb t\u00eb dashuroja m\u00eb shum\u00eb derisa t\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebja t\u00eb lumtur, sesa t\u00eb b\u00ebj edhe t\u00eb vuash! Un\u00eb dua t\u00eb t\u00eb shoh n\u00eb p\u00ebrmbushjen e t\u00eb gjitha d\u00ebshirave t\u00eb tua\u201d.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u201c\u2026Po, q\u00eb prej s\u00eb m\u00ebrkur\u00ebs t\u00eb dua n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr; m\u00eb duket sikur jemi m\u00eb t\u00eb lidhur, m\u00eb t\u00eb af\u00ebrt, sikur m\u00eb pak gj\u00ebra nga bota e jashtme mund t\u00eb ndikojn\u00eb n\u00eb lidhjen ton\u00eb; q\u00eb, edhe sikur t\u00eb mos piqemi p\u00ebr nj\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb, kjo s\u2019do t\u00eb thot\u00eb gj\u00eb dhe s\u00eb fundmi (a […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5339,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[16,10,11,14,15,19],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n